Monday, March 29, 2010
Laurie, Laurie, Laurie… You definitely lived life the way you wanted. I loved you instantly! I loved your love of laughter. I haven’t connected with anyone in my life like I did with you when it came to laughter, and I’ve been around this country a bit. There is something so pure about honest laughter. It is pure expression of all that is good, and laughter healed our broken hearts. I don’t laugh so much anymore and I carry the weight that proves it. I miss those times with you Laurie. I miss you. I loved you instantly! Love of music. Wow, right? How important was music in life? There are people who liked music, and then there was us. It was more than that, and at times it was everything, or the only thing. I loved you instantly! I also can’t think of anyone that had my back, every time, without question, like you did. It was automatic for you to protect and cover me. The world has been a cold place since those days. I have missed you in my life. I loved you instantly! Now, I just take the knives out of my back and take comfort in knowing that really I was blessed to have had such a pure, true friend in you. Some people go through life and never know such a friendship. While I’ve missed you in my life for a long time, and you will never be in my life again, at least I have known what the love of a true friendship is. Gifts aren’t always for keeps in the physical sense, but I have never stopped and will always carry you in my heart and soul. No one has replaced you, or even come close. You gave me gifts like no one else. I loved you instantly! As we grew up, things got in the way and we drifted apart only to come face-to-face again in your final days. I love how your essence was still the same spirited and authentic self. Tell me what you really think Laurie; no wait, tell me what you really want. I mean, don’t let death stand in the way of speaking your mind. There was no mistaking your wishes or intentions, as always, they were clear as can be. I love that about you. People could take a lesson or two from you. I know I did. I loved you instantly! And you my dear are blessed to have had your mom and your sister to help you make the transition from this life. You weren’t exactly easy to take care of, but then I’m sure you knew that. That’s my Laurie, just be real right? The patience and the love that I saw your mom and your sister give to you at a time that was most painful of all for them was nothing short of amazing. They were exhausted and sad to the core, yet they loved you honestly and unconditionally. You were blessed in this way. I always loved you mom and your sister. Can I have them now :) ? You are the purest most authentic person I have ever known. I am fortunate to have had you as my best friend. I’m so sorry you never really fully knew this, but you do now. You know all things now. Your dad, and the angels that you saw and spoke of, have you now my friend. There is no better place to be. You’re in the arms of the angels and God is good! Rest in heavenly peace my friend…my best friend. I love you, Rena
